Field Guides
Essays, reflections, and dispatches from the edge of rupture and return.
Field Guides explores trauma, inheritance, culture, womanhood, memory, and the quiet work of returning to yourself.
A Field Guide to Rupture
Rupture is not a particular event.
It is the reorganization that follows.
I am not describing something dramatic or visible. I am describing the internal shift that happens when stability gives way and the body reorganizes itself around that loss.
Love is Sufficient unto Love
A field guide to the simplicity of what is sacred.
I had spent years searching distant shores for
something I felt was missing. I was trying to find my
way back to something I couldn’t quite remember.
Home to the source of love I knew, before life gave
me fear.
Between Maps
A field guide on the space between no longer and not yet.
There are times in a life when the familiar roads stop leading home.
The roles you once inhabited feel ill-fitted. The rules that once informed your decisions lose their authority. What once felt true begins to feel foreign, as if the map you were given no longer matches the terrain beneath your feet.
Sacred Attention
A field guide to the simplicity of what is sacred.
The sacred is waiting for you beneath the noise.
We do not have to earn our way back to it. We only
have to become still long enough to let it find us.
The Tide Always Turns
A field guide to holding yourself through change.
As a young Catholic schoolgirl in a pleated plaid skirt and green kneesocks, something in me always knew the story they were telling about Mary Magdalene was all wrong.
When the Ground Beneath Us Breaks
A field guide to staying human while white knuckling it.
We are all white knuckling it.
The grip doesn’t have to be graceful.
It just has to hold.
You’re not alone in the holding.
Mary Magdalene
A field guide to what was taken.
As a young Catholic schoolgirl in a pleated plaid skirt and green kneesocks, something in me always knew the story they were telling about Mary Magdalene was all wrong.
A Diminished Inheritance
A field guide to what was passed down and what we’re still healing.
Your nervous system remembers what your grandmothers survived.
The Ocean Doesn’t Argue with the Sky
A field guide on faith, discernment, and remaining as vast as the ocean.
There will be moments when pressure builds and the atmosphere darkens and you feel the old reflex to brace, to argue, to control what cannot be controlled.
Sacred Rage
A field guide to what rage is actually telling you.
There are things happening right now that should
enrage you.
The danger isn’t the rage. It’s what
happens when you’re taught not to trust it.
All the Women in Me Are Tired
A field guide on vigilance, exhaustion, and grounding.
There is a kind of exhaustion that doesn’t come from doing too much, but from trying to make sense of too much.
The Cost of Seeing Clearly
A field guide to living honestly in systems that aren’t.
Most people think revolution looks like collapse.
They don’t see the part that is build quietly,
choice by choice, person by person.